So I haven't posted anything in so long, I was wondering if I would still have my sight when I logged in! (I think they cancel you after your inactive for a certain amount of time.)
I have been so busy with school and work that I haven't had the time or the desire to be online one more second! Because I am attending the Art Institutes online division, I find myself working on my computer for hours and hours sometimes. It can be quite exhausting. I am truly jazzed to be in a creative "sudo" classroom again, but let me tell you it has been more than a stressful experience. Its only now that I find out that there are work at your own pace programs! I have such strick deadlines, its hard to keep up and it really affects your grade if you don't.
At first I was challenged by the course content... I haven't taken a math or english class for literaly years! It is a real mental workout to find those brain cells again. (Hopefully I have enough left up there, after all the tequilla I have consummed in my life!) I guess the key is to be patient and make enough time for ALL the things you need to do in class, as well as life.
So, I guess the thing that has been on my mind the most of all lately, this morning in particular, is money. Jonathan and I are trying to plan a wedding in October (a real ceremony for friends and family), bid on employee housing units here in town, and pay off all our debt. (I was so close a few months ago!) All these things are made so much more difficult because of my monthly tuition payments. (The Art Institute is a private school and has "private school" prices.) There has been a few times in the last 6 months that I have questioned the practicality of the program I am doing.
Today I had to face my pile of laundry and realize I can't afford to do any of it until next week's pay check. That may should absurd, but going to the laundromat here is a fortune! I can only dream of a day where I have my own washer dryer! (Hopefully, I won't be in the old folks home by then.)
As I mentioned above, we have entered into the employee housing lottery here and if we are picked, we have to come up with $2000 to hold a unit. It is so worth it to own our own place, but it makes me panick to think about more financial responsibility! AHH!
We really do need to get out of our "hole" of an apartment though and I know we will make it work somehow. I am also thinking of switching jobs and that's always scary when the financial compensation at a new place is a little vauge. It feels a little like jumping off a cliff, but I guess I survived moving here, right?
I am not quite sure why I am writing about all of this. Perhaps it is to purge all the worries from my mind. Or maybe it is so others can know why I have been a little cranky or upset lately about financial things that would normally not bother me. I honestly haven't felt this poor since ... well, the first time I tried to go to college. I know that everything somehow works out in the end and the my education is a really good thing to invest in. Thanks for letting me vent! Love and kisses!
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